Every Friday I go to a club downtown Looking for a place to crash They put on old rock records And none of that pop trash There's a girl there about eighteen Who dances for my amusement She's got hot blood burning in her veins And she sure knows how to use it My baby moves, my baby swerves And she never talks to me We lock eyes the whole damn night But still we never see We can't look beyond the bright lights Through the dark clouds of the stage And I'll never mean a thing to her But that's just rock and roll, babe And she's my rock and roll babe I'm not the only man she ever had But I can't accept reality I lie awake at night and picture her As if she belonged to me I love to watch her dance to old Beatles record And I don't even like the Beatles that much She's got soul, but it takes its toll And I can look but I can never touch My baby moves, my baby swerves And she never talks to me We lock eyes each fucking night But still we never see We can't look beyond the bright lights Through the dark clouds of the stage And I'll never mean a thing to her But that's just rock and roll, babe That's just rock and roll, babe And she's my rock and roll babe Rock me Roll me Kiss me Hold me Rock me Roll me Kiss me Hold me All night I skip out of temple to relax In the halls of sex and music Where the hymns are set to drums of old And all us unwashed sinners lose it This is my earthly reward For the path that I have worn To see the misery within her eyes And lust for her sweet form I've had a few And I'm really loose And I'm a mess It's so meaningless My baby moves, my baby swerves And she never talks to me We lock eyes the whole damn night But still we never see We can't look beyond the bright lights Through the dark clouds of the stage And I'll never mean a thing to her But that's just rock and roll, babe That's just rock and roll, babe And she's my rock and roll babe Now rock me Roll me Kiss me Hold me Rock me Roll me Kiss me Hold me All night

The pain when you left me It will run its course But in that time I'll draw the line Before it gets any worse The ceiling is brighter Than the world outside If you were here I'd hold you tighter But you're not, so I'll survive Hard to sleep tonight Gonna make it hard to sleep tonight Hard to sleep tonight Gonna make it hard to sleep tonight If you were my idol And I was your king I made you my vanity To which I could cling But you're just a serpent And I'm just a heel You strike me down again and again And your love was so unreal Hard to sleep tonight Gonna make it hard to sleep tonight Hard to sleep tonight Gonna make it hard to sleep tonight The highway's alive With the sound of a Saturday night Got the radio cranked Through the maze of the harsh headlights Look in the mirror There's a face that's just too old And I need Somebody to hold You'll be sick of love Come the morningtime You've gotta find someone Who just won't mind (In Hebrew) אני יושב בחדר שלי זה חם וזה קר הכל מלחיץ אותי כל הקירות נופלות סביב וכל החברים שלי תמיד עוזבים אני חייב לשאת לבד ואף פעם מוצא אף אחד קשה לישון עכשיו קשה לי רק לישון עכשיו קשה לישון עכשיו קשה לי רק לישון עכשיו אין בחורה לי עם לשכב קשה לי רק לישון עכשיו תני לי לדעת אם יש מצב קשה לי רק לישון עכשיו Hard to sleep tonight Gonna make it hard to sleep tonight Hard to sleep tonight Gonna make it hard to sleep tonight

Maybe I’ll grow out my beard Just in case it turns you on Maybe I can hide my face And hide the places I come from Maybe I can act just right Walk straight and talk real loud Maybe I can change my name Like a stranger in the night passing into the crowd Ooo-ooo That’s the toll you take on me Ooo-ooo So nervous I can hardly breathe If you believe in the fear of God If you believe in the fear of God If you believe in the fear of God Go on and raise me Raise me Raise me up to the love I wanted Raise me up to the life I need Raise me up to the sound of morning To the man I wanna be Write it down if it takes all evening Burn the page if it takes all week Rising up to the sound of morning To the man I wanna be Maybe I can just go home And admit sometimes I fail It’s not easy to admit you’re wrong But I know I’ll survive and I can find another trail Or maybe I’ll stick to my guns And do something I really love But I’m still walking through these city walls And I’m still praying to my fathers and my God above Ooo-ooo That’s the toll you take on me Ooo-ooo So nervous I can hardly breathe If you believe in the fear of God If you believe in the fear of God If you believe in the fear of God Go on and raise me Raise me Raise me up to the love I wanted Raise me up to the life I need Raise me up to the sound of morning To the man I wanna be Write it down if it takes all evening Burn the page if it takes all week Rising up to the sound of morning To the man I wanna be To the man I wanna be To the man I wanna be If you believe in the fear of God If you believe in the fear of God If you believe in the fear of God If you believe in the fear of God Raise me up

The beer pours out from the bottle You stop and take a picture off your shelf You sit and you stare, but it won't look right You just don't look like yourself And no one every listens to you talking So why bother to talk anyway? You keep yourself quiet to pass the night But there's so much that you wanna say Yeah, there's so much that you wanna say But you won't be always lonely Won't be always lonely Won't be always lonely If you got me If you got me Your apartment is silent and cluttered The parties are so far away Through the rain and the snow and the howling wind So tomorrow will be just the same Tomorrow will be just the same But you won't be always lonely Won't be always lonely Won't be always lonely Since you got me Since you got me The fog rolls up in the winter You sit and you stare at your phone And you think of the people that you'd like to call But you know tonight you're gonna be alone When I see you, we're separated A line drawn in our reality A touch is all we need to break the barrier Hey now! Are you scared to give that touch to me? Are you scared to give that touch to me? But you won't be always lonely Won't be always lonely Won't be always lonely 'Cause you got me 'Cause you got me

Look at the times My how they change Look at your life Get rearranged Coat's on the table Pack of cigarettes If you must go I know it's for the best Vote for change It stays the same People yelling And they sound deranged If you must go If it takes your pain You know I won't stop you Just remember my name It's the easy way out To say I don't care But it's wearing me down And it's stripping me bare It's just emotion And nothing more But you brought me closer Closer than I've ever been before Closer than I've ever been before Remember my name Remember my name Remember my name Remember my name Remember my name Remember my name Remember my name It stays the same All these little angels Fall upon the ground It's all these people We swore we didn't want around It ain't what we wanted But it's clear to see That what we want Isn't always what we need Coat's on the table Pack of cigarettes If you must go I know it's for the best It's just emotion And nothing more But you brought my closer Closer than I've ever been before Closer than I've ever been before

I'll walk with you through the night If I can hold onto my eye's delight All around us, the snow will fall For the season calling one and all I'll walk you home, take you inside We'll lay down by firelight Take off those clothes, and draw real close Let all that lust embrace us both Through the fog sits a full moon The solstice setting, all too soon For the moment all remains the same Snow takes the place of freezing rain By now there's nothing I can do I can't keep the snow, and I can't keep you But I can cling with all my fear And long for you through all these years So let's go to sleep in Winterland Where the night goes by slow as it can Rise tomorrow, to a world renewed Known only to the chosen few So pray for winter, pray for snow Pray for nights when the cold wind blows Pray for lust, pray for fire Pray for eternal desire Now, you don’t like the rain and snow The cold and pain is all you know But if you set aside your fear This is the world that I hold dear I know nothing can ever last And all time must come to pass Seasons come and seasons go And so does everyone I know

That cute bright-eyed woman Longs for sensation As she lies alone in the dark As an air of winter Sheds light on love's sinners She writhes with pleasure's spark Spread out on the bed As the soft sheets engulf her In a veil of sweet stark fantasy She tries to behave But at the end of the day She can't carry a melody And neither can I But at least I can try The harder the night The harder the cold In love and in madness The harder the soul The harder the night The harder the cold In love and in madness The harder the soul I go limp in her arms Sometimes I think I've died You know, fear's my mortal enemy But she's my sweet friend And I think in the end She'll prove to be what I need She's such a bad girl And she owns my world She can break me with a whisper With such a soft touch And such a strong lust Longing for me to kiss her I long for that cry Don't ask me why The harder the night The harder the cold In love and in madness The harder the soul The harder the night The harder the cold In love and in madness The harder the soul She has secrets Below the waist She has power At the end of the day And I can't wait I can't wait To be With her again Darkness is love Darkness is faith Darkness is sweet, sweet refuge In the whiteness of night The un-abandoned light Hides her undying truth Dripping with sweat Oh, she's got nothing left But dreaming for tomorrow When love will return And loneliness spurned The cure for every sorrow She longs with her lips Belongs to the sin The harder the night The harder the cold In love and in madness The harder the soul The harder the night The harder the cold In love and in madness The harder the soul She has secrets She has love She has power Far, far above And I can't wait I can't wait To be With her again She starts to burn And starts to get high Longing for a dream She trembles for me Well I'm just trembling With her two lips she'll stop me

Studied out in Turkey And there you fell in love Told us you were going back We thought we'd call your bluff I spent New Year's with my parents In a suburb in Vermont You were getting on a plane The heart wants what it wants I said last year would be the last year That I spent New Year’s Eve alone I said last year would be the last year I sat staring at my phone But here I am It’s midnight once again And I can’t seem To find the words Back home the Rangers were losing I got the message on my phone The decision you were choosing Was gonna leave me all alone I didn't get to see you And you won't be coming back 'Cause you're busy taking refuge From a PKK attack I said last year would be the last year That I spent New Year’s Eve alone I said last year would be the last year I sat staring at my phone But here I am It’s midnight once again And I can’t seem To find the words Remember all the music When we played in a band? We were hitting on that waitress Who was looking for a man It was the dead of winter But we felt so warm inside In that dank and dusty basement That filled us with so much pride I promise I don't blame you I know there's things you had to do But if you get your ass blown off You know, I'm gonna miss you I said last year would be the last year That I spent New Year’s Eve alone I said last year would be the last year I sat staring at my phone But here I am It’s midnight once again And I can’t seem To find the words For the first time In a lifetime For the first time In a lifetime

Gimme one more Gimme one more Gimme one more try Gimme one more Gimme one more Gimme one more try Winter in the city All my friends downtown I’m just too busy So I turn them down I always seal the deal But I never can bank it They say beggars can’t be choosers But I got a whole banquet Gathering moss Every bridge that I cross And I treat all my lovers Like a worn-out blanket I never wear a coat So I got a disease But it’s a part of my mind No one can see Walking through these city streets If I talked to everyone I meet I wouldn’t find a single soul By the end of the night Gimme one more Gimme one more Gimme one more try Gimme one more Gimme one more Gimme one more try To lead a normal life I swear I’ll do it right I swear I’ll do it right Try so hard To sort out your mind But everyone you meet Seems so unkind Try to escape But there’s no release I got a brand new apartment With a year-long lease Gnashing my teeth Like a beast on a leash And I’m hungry for redemption But I’m ready for the feast I’m a Jew In the heart of Christendom And the trials I face Have just begun If I didn’t feel so weak If it didn’t feel so hard to speak Maybe if I took my meds You could be mine Gimme one more Gimme one more Gimme one more try Gimme one more Just one more Gimme one more try To lead a normal life I swear I’ll do it right I swear I’ll do it right There’s a waitress in a bar With the made-up curls And she wants me to treat her Like I’ll make her my girl She’s 10 years older And it makes no sense But I’m sick of being punished For my innocence There’s a woman I sought For the soul she gave I keep thinking she’s an angel But I treat her like a slave And I could never have her With the way I behave But I know her soul was never Really mine to save If I said there’s nothing left to do And I slept with every girl I knew I could tell myself I feel at home But it wouldn’t be true Gimme one more Gimme one more Gimme one more try Gimme one more Just one more Gimme one more try To lead a normal life I swear I’ll do it right I swear I’ll do it right Take me from home Throw me to the darkness in the great unknown I thought I'd make it on my own But I never felt further, and I never been so alone

She never really liked me Now that I always knew But she never really knew me So there's nothing I can do I guess she really hates me But I can't say the same Maybe I deserve it I know only I'm to blame The only thing I feel The only thing I feel The only thing I feel Is shame Just shame She's blowing some dude up the stairs In my apartment hall They're keeping me awake tonight So I'll give them a call I'm trying to feel poison So I can get my way But I can see they're happy So the anger slips away The only thing I feel The only thing I feel The only thing I feel Is shame Just shame I can't burn at somebody But I still burn at myself I wish someone would listen But if you can't it's just as well Lord, I get so nervous Just to hear your name I ain't sure I even love you But you sure dull the pain The only thing I feel The only thing I feel The only thing I feel Is shame Just shame The only thing I feel The only thing I feel The only thing I feel Is love Just love

I wish you had met somebody better Someone who wouldn’t leave you on your own But the truth is I can’t stand to be around you And I only ever long to be alone Sweet solipsism I relinquish all control Sweet Solipsism Take my autismal soul I could crash my car into a snowbank Lie there and freeze to death outside Or work all night and never bother sleeping Push myself ’til I shrivel up and die Sweet solipsism I relinquish all control Sweet Solipsism Take my autismal soul My body will consume all of my muscles My emotions will eat my brain alive I’ll hunger for your presence like an infant But to talk to you, I’m not even gonna try I feel so evil when I think about you But I never make my thoughts reality There’s a chasm that runs so far between us And a wall that divides the world from you and me Sweet solipsism I relinquish all control Sweet Solipsism Take my autismal soul

I’ve got a lot of problems I brought upon myself They cost me all my lovers And erode my mental health I’ve got a lot of syndromes And I know I shouldn’t talk But I don’t know what’s okay to say So I guess I’ll say it all Break me when I'm desperate Shield me from the truth Hold me when I'm restless And feed my inner youth, yeah Crush me like Qaddafi Dangling from a noose And break me when I'm desperate It's all that you can do I’ve got a lot of women Hoping I can stay Try to make me hungry Try to make go astray And I’ve got so many friends Well I wish I felt the same But I can’t get too close Or I’ll push them all away Break me when I'm desperate Shield me from the truth Fuck me when I’m restless And sustain my inner youth Raise me like a prophet Even though I've got no proof And break me when I'm desperate It's all that you can do These thoughts just keep on forming Things I wish I didn’t think And I try to calm my worries With pleasure and a drink These vices keep me busy The work will make me free But I’ll never have the life I want Without society Everyone I know Gets caught up in the noise And I can't relate to things I can't destroy Break me when I'm desperate Shield me from the truth Hold me when I’m restless And feed my inner youth Love me like a Spainard And make my world anew Treat me like a child If it makes you feel aloof Put me down in public Like a riot on the loose Fuck me up in private ‘Cause you know I like abuse Lead me to the slaughter If I ask you for a truce And break me when I'm desperate It's all that you can do

I starve myself to earn the grace of fortune But it never seemed to want to give me love And I've tried so hard to capture all these moments But I believe by now I've waited long enough And I can't seem to get my head on straight When I'm just too fed fucking up I've lingered on your beauty for so many days Just so you could say when my time has come And I can't ever take my eyes off you I know you think it's cause I'm bent on hell But there's no reason to degrade me I only want to see myself I only ever want to see myself Reflected in the pools of love and stillness Reflected in what will be our name Reflected in these halls of sex and music Reflected in the beer and the rain Spread out my cloak to fall and drape upon you You always seemed to like the way that feels You know I never dreamed someone would need me But the way your heart keeps beating, it feels too real I plant you like a fruit in a king's vineyard I plant you, lay you down upon your bed And it hits straight home when you laugh at me 'Cause only you can drill straight through my head And I don't need your precious Plato To tell me how I'm supposed to think I only need the knowledge of the wind, babe To look into your eyes and take a drink To look into your eyes and take a drink Straight out of the pools of love and stillness Within these memories that cause me shame Straight out of the psalms of sex and music Within the memories of beer and rain Within the memories of beer and rain You know, I never dreamed this world would need me So I built one on my own, just for myself But just to hear your singing and your breathing If I can, I'll take this one as well And I just want to hold you till your body melts away Consume all of your being, in every crevice of my veins I never knew the power of peace within a word But I can feel it in my hands and I know it's just absurd And I can't ever take my eyes off you I know you think it's cause I'm bent on hell But there's no reason to degrade me I only ever want to see myself I only ever want to see myself Reflected in the pools of love and stillness Reflected in what will be our name Reflected in the hymns of sex and music Reflected in the beer and the rain Reflected in the beer and the rain Reflected in the beer and the rain Reflected in the beer and the rain (In Hebrew) אני לא רוצה להיות לבד כשאני הולך לישון And take me just as hard as you can Break me just as hard as you can I've been kicked down and back again Just to feel like I'm a man Come take me just as hard as you can