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Blood On The Piano

by Roske

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1.
Just as Hard 04:22
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Most days I never leave my room And I always feel like I'm gonna die soon Sometimes it's hard to talk at all Sometimes it takes a whole lotta balls But I don't wanna die, I wanna live So there's something I need you to give [chorus] I said yeah, yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah I said yeah, yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah I said yeah, yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah Alright! Take me just as hard as you can Break me just as hard as you can I've been kicked down and back again Just to feel like I'm a man Take me just as hard as you can Break me just as hard as you can I look kinda ugly, feel kinda dead Most days I don't sleep, but I still stay in bed And it's hard sometimes 'cause there's nothing to prove But you make me feel like I got something to lose Sometimes I doubt myself at every turn And I keep getting taught, but I never learn [chorus] I can barely read, I can barely write But when I ain't nervous I'm kinda bright But you make me sweat, when you play it cool So to you I'll always play your fool But gimme some music, to get me high And I'll show you something that'll blow your mind [chorus]
2.
Count Me Out 05:42
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You always said I'd be the one left behind But take a good look babe, this is my time And you'd love to count me out Wouldn't you babe? Yeah, you'd love to count me out Wouldn't you babe? It's been years since I've seen you Still I can't forget you Ain't it such a shame To be stuck on a name? You still don't think too much of me Still talking so derisively But I'm older now I know the things you say I guess I just wasn't cute enough Well take a look, I'm real cute, huh? Get ready, girl Things are about to change And I know that You're gonna be amazed Yeah I know that You're gonna be amazed Used to talk me down with pity But that feeling never fit me I don't care for sadness Just wanna be understood Tried to make you feel what I did Hold you in the palm of my hand Maybe it wasn't right But what you did was cold You know, I don't feel a thing I don't want you to feel for me But you never did believe in me I just wish you'd believe in me And you'd love to count me out Wouldn't you, babe? And you'd love to count me out Wouldn't you, babe? Some things you did were right But it wasn't all deserved You'd show off that boy you had You knew it made me hurt And you'd talk behind my back About things that were untrue But you know that I would never Do a thing like that to you You know that I would never Do a thing like that to you And you'd love to count me out Wouldn't you babe? And you'd love to count me out Wouldn't you babe? You always said that I would die alone But baby, there were things you didn't know Baby, there were things you didn't know I want you to seethe When you hear me on the radio I want you to seethe When you hear me on the radio Jealousy, babe It's a feeling that you ought to know And you'd love to count me out And you'd love to count me out And you'd love to count me out And you'd love to count me out
3.
Girl Like You 05:39
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You're looking my way Well I'm not one for style And you hide your face But you can't hide that smile Well maybe I should Get your number, talk to you I'm not one to talk to people But you see right through Enough is enough And I don't want to wait But fear keeps me quiet And I just can't say That I know I've never met a girl like you And it makes me wonder why You never came into my life 'Cause you shake me up and God knows I never really could say why You're my calling card You make me stand my guard And you're making My heart burn for you Well I got you now But do I want to? I feel I'm losing ground And I'm scared of that too There's no way to win So there's no way to lose But I can't find joy In the heart and soul of the blues I'm scared of changing But if you don't, you die So if I take you Maybe you could save my life 'Cause I know I've never met a girl like you And it makes me wonder why You never came into my life 'Cause you shake me up and God knows I never really could say why You're my calling card You make me stand my guard And you're making My heart burn for you If there's a problem Know that I'm to blame 'Cause you got everything to lose And I got everything to gain I can't commit To destined pain And you don't see why it hurts But I say it's just change Still I'm alone So it's all the same But dear God I'm not ready And it's to my shame 'Cause I know I've never met a girl like you And it makes me wonder why You never came into my life 'Cause you shake me up and God knows I never really could say why You're my calling card You make me stand my guard And you're making My heart burn for you God knows I never met a girl like you In my life In my life God knows God knows
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Exhaustion 05:27
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Wake up running On three hours of sleep Today's city drama Can't find you no peace Coffee and pills Get you through the day An un-autonomous mind Lets you take home pay You want help Then you're on your own The noise drowns you out You're all alone The system leaves you tired But you always stay awake It's just exhaustion And it's taking your soul away Try to sing, play guitar You ain't got the time You still find space in your life To get yourself high No strength left To keep yourself going strong You try to think different They just say you're wrong Faith forsakes you Shakes you with a kiss And everyone on Facebook Is a fascist prick The system leaves you tired But you always stay awake It's just exhaustion And it's taking your soul away Like a cog in a broken machine Nothing's changing, nothing to see No life coming off the TV Just divorce rates, shootings, Charlie Sheen Try to write Your hands break up Your head is heavy And you think you suck You try to explain They say it ain't true Your tongue gets tied They walk all over you You go to bed You just can't sleep Your body aches You're in way too deep The system leaves you tired But you always stay awake It's just exhaustion And it's taking your soul away
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Misery 06:02
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Misery Makes bitter company Of all the things I wanted to be Alone wasn't one of them But I guess I don't mind it I've been haunted By the ghosts of memories And all the people I don't see It's not that I hate them I just need to breathe I've been thinking about Babe, you and me I've been feeling like I can't breathe And I've been living days Of misery Been looking back On younger days When I didn't know Just what to say Or why I drove Everyone away It's just these things That I never could touch All these things I wanted Just a little too much That prove I'm just not Good enough for love I've been thinking about Babe, you and me I've been feeling like A dirty thief And I've been living days Of misery I've been haunted by ghosts of the future The people I still turn away And I'm trying just so hard to stop myself But I make the same mistakes every single day And I just feel shame And I just feel shame I'm just trying To survive But there's things I can't decide If I should destroy my soul Or let my soul destroy me Somehow I'll find Meaning in this Life of mine Things don't stay the same forever People find love when they believe And I've believe in you Babe, you and me During days When I can't breathe During days Of misery I've been thinking about Babe, you and me Believe me I'm Not what I seem I've just been living days Of misery
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I Sleep With Her 05:36
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I sleep with her She helps me sleep I hang out with her She tells me what not to be I take off her clothes I know she's what I need When she leaves it kills me When she comes, I breathe She's such a quiet woman And I'm such a lonely child If I had her every night I wouldn't have a problem All the dreams of heaven They can't brush off the hurt And I just can't sleep without her No, I just can't sleep without her Her gentle touch still lingers She's imprinted on my brain She's my creative lifeblood Like the early morning rain And she makes me feel so strong Just to know that she feels safe The sun's coming up but I don't mind Stuck on the things she takes away Sometimes I don't see her And it's hard to get around The sleepless nights, they get to me And I feel I'm breaking down All the dreams of heaven They can't brush off the hurt And I just can't sleep without her No, I just can't sleep without her I long for that taste That takes me home The kisses from a soul So soft and warm And I don't want a thing From anyone Just a cry from her She's the only one And I just can't sleep without her I just can't sleep without her Her hair flowing As she undresses An angel floating Her body presses My spirit burns My eyes close hard I'm in debt to her Heart for a heart I just don't feel a think without her This world doesn't mean a thing Doesn't mean a thing to me Doesn't mean a thing to me It's all just a dream A dream of love - I can't sleep And when I do I dream of her I can't sleep And when I do I dream of her I can't sleep And when I do I dream of her I need you to flaunt it Go on, make me want it Show me some skin, babe Show me some skin, babe Show me some skin Show me your sin
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Blood On The Piano 06:45
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Over the noise and glamour and pain of the piano I catch a glimpse of fantasy Some hard-driving rhythm is pounding at my vision And I do believe it's a dream The crowd it sings to me In tongues of the night There in the heart of darkness You'll find the soul of life And it feels like love but it's probably not And it feels like love but it's probably not And all I gotta do is give it all I got All I gotta do is give it all I got And I dream of home but it's so far Blood on the piano And blood on this guitar Between the sweltering heat of the subway And the bleeding heart of day There in the line of fire I find my way I've seen you in my dreams With breasts as black as night The queen of angels sings to me And whispers that she's mine And it feels like love but it's probably not And it feels like love but it's probably not And all I gotta do is give it all I got All I gotta do is give it all I got And I dream of home but it's so far Blood on the piano And blood on this guitar My nerves are on fire Burning out of control I'm just getting higher There's one thing I know I'm bound to come down I'm bound to bleed That's all I know I guess that's all I need God I never burned like I burn right now God I never burned like I burn right now God I never burned like I burn right now God I never burned like I burn right now Over the noise and glamour and pain of the piano I catch a glimpse of fantasy Some hard-driving rhythm is pounding at my vision And I do believe it's a dream And it feels like love but it's probably not And it feels like love but it's probably not And all I gotta do is give it all I got All I gotta do is give it all I got And I dream of home but it's so far Blood on the piano And blood on this guitar And it feels like love but it's probably not And it feels like love but it's probably not And it feels like love but it's probably not And it feels like love but it's probably not It feels like love Feels like love Feels like love Just like love
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Batman 06:54
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Most days I stay inside Gets lonely sometimes But it helps me to get away Escape into my mind And sometimes I feel like Nothing will ever change But I know I'll Be a hero someday Yeah I know I'll be a hero someday So why not now? Why not now? Why not now? I wanna be Batman I wanna be that man I wanna be bad, man Right now! Most days I'm afraid of feeling The things life makes you feel Most days I lock myself away Until nothing seems real It'd be easier to lock my Lock myself inside 'Till the day I die 'Till the day I die But I gotta live a real life! I'm the Goddamn Batman! I'm the Goddamn Batman! I'm the Goddamn Batman! Yes I am! Someone to be a hero Someone to make a righteous stand Someone to rise to the occasion Someone to say "Hey, I'm a man!" I'm the Goddamn Batman! I'm the Goddamn Batman! Yes I am! So riddle me this Can I feel my hands? They're falling apart in front of me I guess anything can Wanna see a magic trick? I can pull my heart right out It's hard to keep standing back up When you keep getting knocked down But I won't let myself be pushed around I'm the Goddamn Batman! I'm the Goddamn Batman! I'm the Goddamn Batman! Yes I am! Spoiling a movie 'Cause I'm an aspie With OCD, yeah With OCD
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This Time (It's For Real) 05:52
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I have nothing to preach anymore There's nothing to say That hasn't been said before And if you don't believe in me Then I guess you never will And if I can't change your mind Then I'll let myself be still But I'm not gonna give up I just have to learn That nothing will be enough Well just 'cause I don't understand Doesn't mean you do Just 'cause you talk louder Doesn't make it true This time it’s for real This time it’s for real I didn’t take the high road I can’t reinvent the wheel I don’t know where you’re coming from And I don’t know how you feel But this time it’s for real I have nothing to say anymore My mouth's sewn shut And my hands are feeling worn I guess I'm a little nervous But I'm light on my feet And maybe my tongue's a little tied But just let me find my beat This time it’s for real This time it’s for real Well I didn’t take the high road I can’t reinvent the wheel I don’t know where you’re coming from And I don’t know how you feel But this time it’s for real I just can't breathe anymore But I've gotta keep searching For something worth living for So keep playing, Schroeder I've had a rough couple weeks The year wasn't much better But I think I've hit my peak This time it’s for real This time it’s for real Well I didn’t take the high road I can’t reinvent the wheel I don’t know where you’re coming from And I don’t know how you feel But this time it’s for real Maybe I act kinda weird But I'm always trying to Face my book of fears If you want me to be a failure I won't be your vindication I know you don't feel much But here's my indignation This time it’s for real This time it’s for real Well I didn’t take the high road I can’t reinvent the wheel I don’t know where you’re coming from And I don’t know how you feel But this time it’s for real
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Lazy Drunk 05:35
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Walk in at 2 AM Kahlua, vodka on my breath So here's my symphony Some dirty chords on broken keys For anyone who's still here Got the midnight blues each night of the year I'm wound so tight nothing can phase me And this melody's driving me crazy 'Cause that riff I played was kind of hazy So come on baby, try and change me I may be a drunk, but I ain't lazy Taking my sweet time Working out thirds and fifths and stupid rhymes (like that one) I'm really killing it I'm actually sort of on time on this Hey all you hipsters skating Lay down your boards, hear what I'm playing I'm wound so tight nothing can phase me And this melody's driving me crazy 'Cause that riff I played was kind of hazy So come on baby, try and change me I may be a drunk, but I ain't lazy Joint's shutting down This old piano's the only sound So here's my symphony Some dirty chords on broken keys Hey all you hipsters skating Lay down your boards, dig what I'm playing I'm wound so tight nothing can phase me And this melody's driving me crazy 'Cause that riff I played was kind of hazy So come on baby, try and change me I may be a drunk, but I ain't lazy
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Normal 06:08
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This world's been cold to me It only hurts or ignores me And if I find something to believe It only serves to scorn me And it gifts me All these little victories Takes me higher and higher Just to take it away And make it clear to me That nobody wants me Well if I can't be normal Then I don't want to be I stumble with my words Like I stumble when I walk I can't meet anyone's eyes And it makes me scared to talk There's just too much to say So why try to talk at all? No one pays attention They'd just say I was wrong It's something they're not used to And I wish they'd let it be 'Cause I can't be normal That's pretty clear to me It's a dark, dark feeling I guess I like being alone too much It's a dark, dark feeling I guess I like being alone too much It's a dark, dark feeling I guess I like being alone too much It's a dark, dark feeling I guess I just don't like myself It's a dark, dark feeling I guess I just don't like myself It's a dark, dark feeling I guess I just don't like myself And I don't want you to talk I just want you to listen Don't you say A fucking word to me 'Cause I can't be normal So I don't fucking want to be It's a dark, dark feeling I don't want to be alone It's a dark, dark feeling I don't want to be alone It's a dark, dark feeling I don't want to be alone I don't want to be alone I don't want to be alone I don't want to be alone I don't want to be alone
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Alive Tonight 03:56
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Take my cold night in your eyes My cold life can wait Raise me up on puppet strings I'd rather feel hurt than safe Teach me to speak again Raise me up like Frankenstein Help me to believe in The things I count as mine Well I don't believe in you But I really wish I could 'Cause you just shake me Into doing the things I should And I don't want eternal life I just want to be alive tonight Take my numb heart in your hands My numb nerves can wait I'm not really living Just dying day by day Raise me up like Elijah Into the burning fire Suck the pewter from my lips And reignite the wires Well I don't believe in sex Since this world doesn't seem real And I believe in love But I'm struggling to feel And I don't want eternal life I just want to be alive tonight And I can try to force it But it's stuck in my bones And when I burn the lights out I'm still alone When I leave them on They just burn into my soul So raise me up like David And bow before my throne I never really liked the feeling But I gotta learn either way So take my cold night in your eyes My cold life can wait And I don't want eternal life I just want to be alive tonight
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Survivor 07:59
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If I was a fighter Maybe I'd believe If I was a dancer Maybe I could breathe Wanted to play the hero And I guess I paid the price My only friend is loneliness My only hope is desperation How can I salvage my faith When there's nothing left to shake I just want something to believe And I've been burning down the path Hoping for some divine wrath To come and shake me into reality And no one can make it on their own I am a survivor I am a survivor I am a survivor I walk upon the ledge Above the valley of the shadow of death I've got a song burning In my dry bones Hear the angel whisper in my ear Dear boy, there's nothing here to fear Ain't no demons gonna break your will I can see the passion in your eyes So don't pretend that you're too blind You know the truth as well as I Come on Dry your eyes Dry your eyes Ain't it nice to be alive? Tell me are you breathing? Tell me can you feel me? Well then what reason is there to complain? Nothing to lose in living This life was made for giving So come on You've got to rise above your pain You've got to rise You are a survivor You are a survivor You are a survivor Found someone sort of like me She's beautiful with a heart that bleeds I was lonely from the distance She was lonely from the crowd Laying at night in her bed Feel a little like I'm dead She leans over and she whispers in my ear Dear boy, why are you so afraid? You'll live to see another day And that's good enough for me Dry your eyes Dry your eyes Ain't it nice to be alive? Tell me are you breathing? Tell me can you feel me? Well then why would you ever be afraid? Nothing to lose in living This life was made for giving So come on You've got to rise above your pain You've got to rise You are a survivor You are a survivor You are a survivor I am survivor You are survivor We are all survivors

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All lyrics and music written by Roske.

Additional musicians:

Johnny Cack - Weird voice at beginning of track 8.

Garrett Garcia - Backing vocals on tracks 10 & 13, electric guitar on tracks 10 & 13, bass guitar on tracks 6 & 13, keys on track 13.

Alba Ghoraidh - Backing vocals on track 8.

Rob Picarelli - Backing vocals on track 3, guitar on track 12.

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released November 5, 2013

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Roske is an NYC-based singer-songwriter who writes lyrics inspired by his Autism Spectrum Disorder and OCD. Roske explores themes of religion, social issues, anxiety and, like all good rock stars, love and sex.

A big fan of classic rock, music theory and seeming smart, Roske aims to write complex, intricate music that sounds simple and catchy. ... more

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